11.09.2016

I woke up this morning ready to get back to work. But first I want to discuss anxiety.


I am an anxious person by nature and genetics. I tend to be hyper-vigilant and overly reactive. I've come to understand, over the years, that there are three main triggers to anxiety (and also depression). The triggers are: Ambiguity, Loneliness and Indecision. I would have to say that the election cycle of the last full year has caused most of us, regardless of party, to grapple with continuing doses of ambiguity and no little measure of indecision. Not knowing how to proceed or what challenges might lie ahead causes businesses and people to worry, slow down and become more cautious. My year in 2016 has been a textbook example of the results of these psychological barriers. The loneliness comes when we adapt a "bunker" mentality and sit in our offices, behind closed doors, refreshing news sites to try and discern some sort of rational pattern in all the noise. Only to find that there is no rational pattern. 

When the results of voting started to be broadcast last night I have to admit that I was crestfallen because, as a very liberal democrat, my party was losing; badly. But miracle of miracles... I woke up this morning without a psychic hangover. I didn't get my electoral wish but I did get the twin bastards of indecision and ambiguity out of the way and off my back. There's nothing I can do to change the results and so I am now ready to get back to my own work and recapture the pleasure of living without the dread of "what might be."

Instead of feeling depressed or angry I felt a sense of resolve and direction. The things I can control (to some extent) are my own actions and my own art. I'd put so much on sub-conscious pause to await the outcome and with the issue decided I feel freed up to engage again. I was up before my alarm and in the pool by 7 this morning. Most of my pool mates were glum but we didn't rehash the election we put our heads down and swam well, and fast. We exercised our control over something we enjoy.

I have made it a policy here not to discuss politics. We all have different points of view and there are ample places to argue out the issues of governance and social order but there are fewer and fewer places to read and comment about many different aspects of photography without having to wade through an endless stream of advertisements. While I have admitted my own affiliations (above) I make no judgements here about the U.S. elections other than to say I was disappointed. I'll be moderating comments as usual. I have deleted several this morning of a political nature but, happily, none were virulent or combative. In fact, I agreed with the sentiments expressed but felt the need to hold to a line of neutrality that, I hope, makes this space a fun and stress free resource for people who want to mostly read about my adventures in photography and the ecosystem that surrounds those adventures. 

So, what is the calming thing for me that allows me to move forward with enthusiasm and a sense of meaning? It's just doing the work. The everyday work of photography. Looking, seeing, understanding, recording and sharing. Taking care of the business I can take care of...

On the blog today we are featuring a set of images from a shoot I did many years ago in New York for a company called, Primary Packaging. The images are of skilled craftspeople who come in everyday and do their work. They do it diligently and well. The work provides structure, continuity and belonging. It's not much different than editing images or making clipping paths.

I would imagine that most of the people in these images have retired by now. But it's a reminder to me that while the world swirls around outside our walls the work is the thing that sets our routines and mastery of the work gives us pleasure and a sense of continuity. With the elections behind us I am hoping we can all turn our attention back to things we truly love and enjoy. The pursuit of photography is near the very top of my list. 









A side note: If you are experiencing anxiety over which you feel you have no control I strongly suggest seeking help from a trusted health care professional. It is possible to learn strategies to cope with or even remediate anxiety. I'm also a proponent of some short term pharmaceutical assistance to reduce the horrible feelings attendant with anxiety so you can get a handle on fixing it. See your doctor! See a counselor or mental health expert.  Talk about it. Getting help is far preferable to sitting alone too nervous and distraught to participate in the richness of life. I know. I've been there. And I never want to go back.  end of public service message. Just say "NO" to panic attacks.

20 comments:

David Smith said...

Good on ya for avoiding politics (to the degree that you have been able to) - it's welcome.

Kirk Tuck said...

David, You don't go to a butcher shop to buy kale. Right?

Alan Barnard said...

Great post, Kirk. Here's to getting back to work!

George said...

Great photos, but then I'm prejudiced. People at work are/is my all-time favorite subject. As for the election, you are right - the best we can do is be our best selves. I recently interviewed a third-grade teacher who occasionally brings her Jewish culture into the classroom. She had the kids make beautiful mezuzahs. As she explained it to me, a mezuzah is a symbol to be hung on the front door of Jewish homes, to remind the inhabitants whenever they go in and out to be conscious of what it means to be a conscious and honorable person. To my mind, really, the most important thing in politics today is about being an expansive individual. It's what I enjoy about your writing and photos - you try to show the best in people, and you're always working at it.

Bill Whitworth said...

Love your blog. Thank you for the welcoming, inclusive environment.

John said...

Thanks Kirk
I needed that.

Michael Matthews said...

Thank you, Kirk...

Sane words, well put.

Steve Mack said...

Thank you for your words of encouragement. We all need some.

With best regards,

Stephen

amolitor said...

I woke up this morning in a whirl, but then I told myself that the kids still have to go to their respective schools, the dog still needs to be walked, meals made, etcetera, and ain't none of it going to do itself.

So I got on with it.

Mike Rosiak said...

Good post, and ... re

"I woke up this morning without a psychic hangover. ... There's nothing I can do to change the results and so I am now ready to get back to my own work and recapture the pleasure of living without the dread of "what might be.""

Me too. The suspense is over. Deep breaths, and moving on.

Patrick Dodds said...

Good post Kirk, thank you.

Kirk Tuck said...

A quick note to Peter: Thank you for your kind and well thought out comment. I enjoyed reading it but I think we both understand that it's better between us than running it and sparking a partisan pissing match. But really, thank you!

Mike said...

Thanks, Kirk. This was good and much appreciated.

Cpt Kent said...

Thank you. Those were, for other reasons, coincidentally perfect words well timed. Time to get up out of bed and get on with things.

Dave Jenkins said...

Kirk, I have enjoyed reading your blog from your very first post and as a fellow working photographer agree with you on most matters photographic. I consider your blog to be the best of the best.

As an evangelical Christian and very conservative Republican, we are at opposite ends of the political/religious spectrum. But I deeply appreciate that you keep your photography blog about photography. If I want to read about politics, there are many blogs and web sites of every flavor, but good photography blogs are increasingly rare. As you said, one doesn't go to the butcher shop to buy kale.

In an entirely different vein, seeing your photos of the printing house from yesteryear and thinking of your posts about changes in technology and the graying of photography made me think about the total disappearance of the highly-skilled profession of pre-press stripping. Remember that one? In the early '70s, I was the in-house art director for a small company. We had our own print shop, but farmed out the pre-press work, although I did some of the simpler stuff. I always enjoyed watching a good color stripper at work. Now it's all gone the way of the dodo bird.

(Please excuse if this is a double-post. I tried to post it earlier and it somehow vanished into the void.)

Dave Lemieux said...

Great post Kirk. Although we are on the opposite side of the aisle when it comes to politics, I'm sure we align everywhere else. The everything else such as exercising, family, love of food, and passion for photography supersedes political leanings.

Anonymous said...

There is enough about politics out there. For people like me, photography is a hobby to relax from stressors. Democracy means someone will not be happy with whatever choice is made. But, at least there is a choice.

That being said, I would not buy kale anywhere.

Paul said...

The photos are a great reminder that for most people living in democracies life will go on in a reasonable fashion regardless of who is in power.
From a safe distance in another country I can see why people have opted for someone they believe will change the status quo, regardless of whether he can deliver on his promises. For those that would have preferred the alternative and didn't vote they know what to do at the next election.
I live in a country that has compulsory voting, so I can't understand why anybody would choose not to vote, especially when presented with candidates with quite different agendas and experience.

tnargs said...

Thank you Kirk.

I was surprised to see some anxiety at work even here in Australia.

In my usual manner, I spoke reassuringly.

Edward Richards said...

> If you are experiencing anxiety over which you feel you have no control I strongly suggest seeking help from a trusted health care professional.

Most of the health care professions I know are pretty anxious right now.