I was walking around Austin with a 40mm lens on my camera. I found these two images and thought they were funny. Unusual. One doesn't expect to find trenches in a building on Congress Ave. Just a block or two from the Capitol.

 

I guess it's a historic building so whoever owns it can't just tear it down on a whim. But it's pretty well place real estate so at a certain point an investor sometimes just punts. I can't imagine what the trenches are for but then I am not a structural engineer. 

I can't say that this 40mm lens did a better or worse job than any other 40mm would have since it's not a collection of photographs that lend themselves to "showing off." 

But, in my own mind, the real message from the universe to me on finding this yesterday was, "See? See how much changes from week to week? If you didn't visit you wouldn't see the changes."

I am starting to wonder just how many coats of paint were on these walls before construction/deconstruction started....

(I have officially decided that my trademark ellipses, which I use often and mostly incorrectly, will now have four dots instead of the usual three. It's my way of pushing back on the universe....just a little bit).

Voigtlander's Interesting Selection of Nikon AIs mount lenses. Is it a good idea to buy a lens with an "antiquated" mount?

 

A sample from the Voightlander 58mm f1.4.

It was earlier this year that my friend, Paul, brought this particular line of Voigtlander lenses to my attention. While most photographers think of Voigtlander lenses being produced mostly for M mount camera I was surprised to see that the company had engineered four different lenses that come in a Nikon F mount. After borrowing a 58mm f1.4 from Paul I got really interested and started reading more and more. 

Voigtlander lenses are produced by the same manufacturer in Japan which makes most of the current Zeiss branded lenses; and they have since the days of the Contax SLR cameras. I already own a Zeiss 50mm f1.4 lens which I like very much (lots of "character" wide open) so I was very open to seeing what the company was doing in that strange Nikon space. 

Quick note: A photographer friend named David, who is actually more of a feature film director/producer, probably changes cameras even more often than I do. A month ago I ran into him at a party and he was carrying around one of the "Ghost" finished Leica Q2s. A while back he was the first photographer I knew who splashed out for the Leica S medium format camera and a handful of Leica medium format lenses. His camera turnover is prodigious. Don't worry! He can afford it. 

Anyway, I was walking around taking photos in our downtown area on Friday and I saw him through a window, sitting in a café. I walked in to say, "hello." Next to him on the table was a nice and minty copy of a vintage, Nikon F4 film camera. I asked. He just came back from Tokyo where he picked up the pristinely preserved copy for about $120. Knowing he wouldn't keep it for long I made him promise, upon pain of social censure, not to sell it to anyone but me. It would be the perfect film vehicle for these Voigtlander lenses. And so it goes....

Back to the main topic: Voigtlander currently offers four different lenses in Nikon dress. These are a 90mm f2.8, the 58mm f1.4, the (delicious) 40mm f2.0 and a 28mm f2.8. I've learned that several of these lenses have existed as Nikon mount lenses for years but all have been recently updated to look very much like the pre-AI Nikkor lenses from the late 1960s and early 1970s. Big, husky, deeply scalloped focusing rings, very Nikon-ish aperture rings complete with the little "ears" to engage pre-AI camera meters and the usual Nikon lens mount, complete with electrical contacts with which to enable communication with more modern camera bodies. They are delightful to look at if you worked with Nikon's older cameras for any length of time. They are more stout than the M series lenses but if you are going to mount them to rugged Leica SL bodies or big Panasonic S1 bodies that doesn't rise to the level of off putting. 

The beauty of buying lenses in this mount is that because of the long distance required from the lens to the sensor they can be mounted on just about any mirrorless camera on the market for which an adapter ring is available. They can be used on Nikon's newest Z cameras and when using a Nikon Z adapter they retain the ability to transfer data about aperture settings, max. aperture, etc. and to also enable a guided manual focusing. You can put them on Sony cameras. You can buy old Nikon film or DSLR cameras and use them with a certain nostalgic glee. I'm actually considering tracking down a Nikon Df just to use with these lenses, and a few other Nikon F mount lenses I've held on to. So, very, very much a chameleon family of lenses. 

As I mentioned, I have the 58mm f1.4 and the 40mm f2.0. I can't justify buying the 90mm as I have and enjoy the 90mm Sigma lens but I am trying to consider whether or not to buy the 28mm. The lens designs are modern, dating back to around 2006-2007 for most. They are all very good and use modern optical components such as high refractive elements and some aspheric elements as well. They are not as clinically perfect as some even more modern lenses but I think that's fine for the kind of "found art" shooting I mostly do with them. They are certainly more than adequate and, being completely manual, they are more fun to shoot with. At least for me. 

I would be most interested to hear from anyone who has and is shooting with the 28mm. And, if you'd like to share experiences about the other three lenses I am certain there are a number of readers here who would like to hear about them. Fire away in the comments. 

Right now I'm going to put the 40mm on the front of an SL2 and spend some more time getting to know that lens. That's all for now.

Sorry it's taken me so long to get the comments moderated...  Such a Herculean task! 

OT: Your focus determines your reality. Concentrate on the here and now. (philosophy stolen directly from Star Wars).

 

The world is constantly shifting, changing and mutating. And there are three aspects of psychology that drive anxiety or depression. Each seems to be made worse by the velocity of change.  One is indecision, being unable to act. One is ambiguity, being unable to see effective differences between choices. Or even being able to see choices. And the final driver of feeling glum or distraught and nervous is loneliness. It is possible to develop solutions to all three. But you have to work on it. 

I have a few favorite ways of dealing with modern life. For things like the dastardly (but now tamed) refrigerator or the downed branches from the ice storm, or a door ding on my car from a parking lot, I always try to stop and say: "Will this matter a year from now? A month from now? A week from now?"  And will I even remember it? That helps. 

If a thing (camera, car, window, light, etc.) is lost, stolen or damaged I get to swear out loud for ten seconds and then I remind myself that none of this will really affect the core parts of my life. None of this will put me in existential danger. None of this is irreplaceable. I grab a check book or a credit card and replace the important things but I also view loss as a new offering of choice from the universe, letting me gracefully bow out of owning too much. I don't have to replace everything that goes missing.

When it comes to making decisions I tend to research very quickly, confer with experts and then make quick decisions. I don't mull over important stuff for long. When my dad needed to go into memory care I asked his team of doctors for their recommendation for the best facility in town. When I saw a consensus I immediately moved forward. When a friend had center chest pains, too much fatigue and a tight jaw I didn't stop to debate it or research it or worry about whether someone's insurance would cover it. I called 911. He did have an M.I. He got seen within 30 minutes and enjoyed a good, fast recovery. Indecision in a situation like that is life threatening. But most of the time indecision is just a waste of time. When my dermatologist found a cancerous spot on my cheek we were heading toward Moh's surgery as fast as we could schedule it. Procrastination is more expensive, I think, than not making the absolute best decision.

But as my spouse might tell you, if I go out to look at new cars in the morning I'm generally driving home in my choice that afternoon. 

I'lll never be as wealthy as friends of mine who worked early on at Dell. Or the one's who've clocked 20+ years at Apple. But it's folly to compare oneself with a tiny outlier cohort; especially if you already have more than you really need. I can be as happy driving an inexpensive car as I can be driving a Bentley or a Maserati ---- as long as there's something good playing on the sound system. After swim practice one day I was complaining to a well $$$ compensated friend about how hard it was to make good airline reservations to secondary market cities. He looked at me for a second, almost curiously, and asked, "You still fly commercial?" I reminded myself that I should consider myself fortunate just to be able to go wherever I want. Even if it means flying at the back of coach/economy. In photographic terms it means I'd be just as happy photographing with an old Nikon D700 as I am shooting with a Leica.

So, when it comes to photography I think it's a gift to be able to "see" a shot quickly. Intuit a good composition at speed and to be decisive enough to get what you want in that very moment. To take decisive action. It's the same when it comes to approaching strangers in the street to ask if they'll stand still for a portrait. You have to be decisive and once you've made your decision you need to immediately act upon it. March right in. Smile and sell your desire to portray the stranger and then get it done. Procrastination will rob you of your strength and courage.  And opportunity.

Ambiguity is harder. You don't know what you don't know and you don't always have a path to figuring things out. But you can always control how you'll respond to ambiguity. You can ask for clarity. You can do your due diligence and research. You can get clarity from a mentor or an expert. But you can also decide that there is nothing that needs to be done in the moment and you can dismiss the need to have clarity and move on to solving something else more concrete. That gives you control too.

One thing that seems to trump situations of ambiguity is to have a firm set of rules you follow that are more or less about ethics and morality. Also, taking "feelings" out of an equation and looking at pure facts is so helpful. For example, you may love the house you bought with your spouse 25 years ago but you might do better now in a place that's closer to more friends and family. Not so isolated. But the nostalgia of place could be hampering your decision to move on. Separating the feelings from the facts of your situation is enormously helpful. Selling the old house might mean you can garner more financial security by putting the proceeds into savings, finding a smaller house or apartment closer to friends and family, and start harvesting the benefits of an improved social network. But the ambiguity or overlay of sentiment clouds the decision making and leads one to think of the situation as one with no right answers. Or nothing but bad choices when that's almost never the case.

Finally, the core of anxiety and depression is loneliness. It's interesting to think about as we age. B has been down in San Antonio for weeks at a time this Spring, taking care of her mom. A fall led to a bout in the hospital and some time in skilled nursing care. B is working with her siblings to help their mom safely manage living back in her home. It's the right thing to do for her mom. But it means I'm here by myself for the first time in my long adult life. I thought loneliness would be difficult to deal with. But it seems there is a network here of my friends which has instantly rallied with dinner invitations, coffee drinking dates, happy hours, long walks together and, of course swimming. 

I missed a couple of days in a row of swim practice as I waited for someone to nurse my refrigerator back to health, and as I added more strength training (a lone pursuit).  My mail box and my phone were jammed with messages demanding to know if I was alright. If I needed anything. If they could help. When I showed up for the next workout one of the coaches asked me where I'd been. Was everything alright? Was there anything he could help with?

This, the social network, is the antidote to encroaching loneliness and as I age I find that you actually have to make the effort to keep engaged. It's a reciprocal practice. And a good one to get into. 

When I have the chores all done and my work for the day complete I find that it's also very, very restorative to take a camera and go out walking. Just about anywhere works. And just about any camera works. Being out in fresh air and moving your body is medicinal, especially for one's mental health. Smiling at strangers. Saying "hello." Marveling at so many things that have changed in the landscape from a week ago. And the delightful thing, at least for me, is that walking with a camera is non-competitive and costs nothing. Well, nothing but the occasional cup of coffee. Or a donation for that guy who plays the drums on Congress Avenue with his beautiful little dog named, Nana. 

You can play life two ways. You can be grateful for everything you have, and appreciate all the people in your life or......you can be in constant despair. I know for sure which one is the most fun. For more on the second path go find a copy of the "Winnie The Pooh" and review the sections about Eeyore. Who really would like to be Eeyore when being Pooh seems so much more fun?

I can be sad that I can't lift 200 pounds over my head. But I'm happy I can lift 100 pounds for now. I may never get to 200 but I most likely don't need to. I will most likely not get that cover shot on Rolling Stone Magazine but I also most likely will always enjoy taking photographs, if only just for myself. 

Vacations? I've been on one long, happy, relaxing, fun vacation almost every day since I graduated from UT. And maybe for years before then as well. Being happy in the moment and grateful in the moment is the real secret. And, for the most part, the best stuff is free. All it takes for me to smile and be happy is to see a warm look of love in B's eyes. Then, I am rich and fulfilled beyond compare. 

Just a few thoughts on a Sunday morning. Damn....it's beautiful outside. 

Now it seems like good marketing to broadcast that your truck is a hybrid. 

But a decade or two from now this will be an oddity of the past as all trucks

will most likely be electric. Or maybe nuclear powered. Who knows?

I was looking at WotanCraft camera bags the other day. They look so

canvas-y and rugged. I wanted one but they don't have a USA dealer and

I'd have to order one online and deal with customs. But why would I when this bag above is so great?

finally. I've managed it. I kept both eyes open!!!

Introducing: My New Hat. Summer is rushing towards us...

I'm renaming my camera: The Long Dynamic Ranger. 

Just go be happy and stop whining. Something my high school coach probably said.

More than once. 

Just how well does the Leica Q2 perform in its macro mode? And just how good is its noise performance?

Evening at Will's house. His separate studio/office in the background.

Mark checking messages in the mid-ground. A glass recently emptied of 

Champagne in the foreground.

When I purchased a Q2 I was not looking at it's close focusing performance and I was really less interested in how it handled noise at ISO 4000 and above than I was in how well it handled when operating it, and the overall quality of its files for general use. But after having used it for months now I find myself taking it everywhere. And using more of its other features...

I had the Q2 with me when I met novelist and essayist, Daniel Pinkney, on Friday evening at the Humanities Research Center at UT. I had it with me this morning when I went to buy fresh coffee beans at Trianon coffee, and it waited patiently for me in the car when I went to workout at the gym last evening. The camera is small and unobtrusive but can it perform? Short answer? Hell yeah. May be the perfect "dinner party" camera as well...

There are three things I didn't really explore in the first few months of its residence here. One is the macro mode. One is the ISO performance. And third is the camera's ability to focus well via the manual focusing mode. Which feels just like a well done SLR of old.

I want to write about the first two items here. Starting with macro. This camera makes shooting closer easy. You are still limited to the angle of view of the 28mm lens but with the simple twist of a ring closest to the camera's body you are able to extend focusing, complete with AF, a lot. The image just below shows the closest focus I can get on a bowl of peppers and fresh tomatoes. It's enough magnification to get in pretty tight. It's not a miracle setting and it's not going to give my Sigma 70mm Macro Art lens a run for its money but it gets you closer, cutting the full frame image in half. By which I mean it magnifies by about 50% more. It won't replace your dedicated macro rigs but it is very useful when you realize that you are working with a nearly 50 megapixel image which can be cropped without undo anxiety over image quality. And I mean cropped a great deal. 

This is as close as I could get to the flowers with the macro engaged. 

It's still a wide angle lens. You can see Mary's arm over in the right bottom 

corner. But the detail crop below showed me just how sharp the lens can be right on

the actual focused plane.

The photos of the tomatoes just above and just below are both from the same frame. The bottom frame is a 100% crop of the photo. There are two things of note. This was taken after dark in a dim kitchen and required a high ISO (ISO 6400) and a steady camera. The resulting file was a bit noisy. I expected that. But I ran it through the A.I. DeNoise noise reduction (new feature) in Lightroom to get a fairly noise free photo. I cropped in below to show off the wonderful, fine detail on the leaves of the tomato plant. The ones that are in the plane of focus. Pretty amazing detail given the slow shutter speed, of the handheld camera, and the high ISO which generally robs detail. And kudos to the in lens image stabilization. It just works.

I don't know if it's really visible but on close examination, in the 100% mag. frame above, I see some chromatic and luminance noise in the black area between the front two tomatoes. But given the 6400 ISO setting I think it's an excellent performance. I'm happy with it. 

Yesterday evening I posted a casual, black and white portrait of Will in a blog. I made the image into a monochrome. I thought you might want to see where I started from. What the color image looked like when it existed in LRC as a raw file. I am not AT ALL asking you to pick favorites. There are things about both that are good. I'm not looking for a critique or scoring. I think after 40+ years of shooting, printing and publishing I know what I'm looking for. I just wanted you to see "under the hood" so to speak. 

Will in color.

I'm still finding out just how much the Q2 can do. If I ever retire (and why would I?) the idea of just owning a Q2 and maybe a companion Q2M seems awfully tempting. And carefree. Pondering the future is always a bit dangerous.

A casual portrait of my friend, Will. Why I always take my camera to dinner parties.

 

Will. 

My friend Will, and his wonderful wife Mary, love to entertain at their home. And I understand why. They are just so good at it. Knowing that my better half is out of town this weekend they invited me and another good friend over for an extended happy hour with lots of fun food and beverages. They've invited me over often this Spring and we've been lucky with the weather so we get to sit outside in the middle of their vast garden, under strings of lights. 

I am rarely without a camera and Will, a photographer of fame and merit, is more than willing to stop for a quick portrait. On Friday evening I was carrying my Q2 around with me and channeling some of the style I've seen from UK photographer Paul Reid. (look him up on YouTube).

Will was sitting at a counter facing into his kitchen and I liked the way the light flowed down his face. I asked him to lean forward for a few frames and fired off five or six shots with the camera set to f1.7 while using 1/60th of a second and auto-ISO. Some of my best portraits come from times when we are all happily socializing. And my friends are quite used to me having a camera around.

This photo started life as a color raw file and I did most of my meager post processing work in the color space before using a Lightroom Preset to convert the image to black and white. Or as we're now supposed to say, "monochrome." 

The camera has built-in image stabilization and a wonderful lens. The lens goes a long way toward making me appear to be a better photographer than I otherwise might be. 

Will has the same issue I do. He's always the one taking photographs of family and friends but rarely gets photographed himself. Sometimes the gift of an interesting portrait is of great value to the subject's family. And it's fun. I sent the image along to Mary and she really liked it. 

Dinner parties are such a great event to photograph. Everyone is mostly happy and calm. Friends you've had for decades and decades are completely open to you exercising your craft. And the Q2 is weather resistant which is great for those times when someone opening a bottle of Champagne gets too carried away with the drama of the "Pop" and gets a few effervescent splashes on the camera. 

The Q2 is helping to change my mind. To open it up to the potential of portraits made with wider and wider angle lenses. 

Will is a  wonderful subject and hanging out with him and his crew is a really keen way to spend a Friday evening in the Spring time. I'm so lucky to have so many close and long friendships. Makes life even better.

 

ATTENTION Austin Photographers. Eeyore's Birthday Party is one week and one day away. Mark your calendars for April 29th at Pease Park!

Sony a850 camera. Minolta 28-85mm zoom lens.

It's that wonderful time of the year again when we get together at Zilker Park, celebrate Eeyore's Birthday Party and raise money for local charities. With cancellations in 2020 and 2021 there is a lot of pent up demand to jump into drum circles, dance like no one is watching, smoke dope on the hillside, dress like fairies and Pooh characters and generally have a wonderful time. 

I suggest that this is a wonderful event for photographers as well. If you really want to immerse yourself in the fun and visual wildness you might want to leave those creepy, long zoom lenses at home and practice your craft as you would if you became a street photographer. 

The prime time for Eeyore's is always from around one p.m. till dusk. No glass bottles. No weapons. No bad attitudes. A happy gathering. Started by a UT English professor named, Joe Slate, way back in the mists of time. Now an event.

A quick note on photography blogging.

I've got a few ethical questions about blogging about the photography space. Not easy ones like: "should I have affiliate links?" but more along the lines of, "Just how much personal information should a blogger be sharing?" "How much personal information do audiences really want?" "How close to the primary/core area of interest should bloggers stay?" Lately I shared way too much information about my infernal refrigerator. (It's now working as it should and has been for about ten days now.... recompense for expenses  received, warranty extended). And I never mind sharing stuff like how the swimming is going. Or what I'm planning for upcoming vacations. Even something along the lines of fun and positive, but non-photographic events in day to day life. Ben's graduation from college. B's retirement.

But I feel queasy posting about childhood traumas, colossal personal failures, failed relationships, abject  fears of mortality and decay, or non-business related setbacks. I'm also not a fan of family histories or "might have beens." And I definitely would never want to share my financial information or net worth online. For any number of good reasons.

But here's the deal, if we read the same blogs for years at a time we develop a sense of community, and a penchant  sharing, feedback and a sense of mutual give and take. If someone like myself is willing to put life stuff out there in writing it should be assumed that, as long as comments are enabled, I'm willing to accept feedback, praise and even reproach (or gentle course correction) from my readers. I don't always agree with or like the feedback I get from tilling the soil of blogging but I should expect to get it. If it's ad hominem attack material I have the option of deleting a sour comment but generally, even when a reader disagrees with me such as the recent chiding I got for converging architectural parallels I post it argue about it and then, sometimes (as in the case of Mr. Benson's comment) realize that maybe the other guy is right. And that I've over-reacted.

With photographic content this is easier. You can argue fine points about photography for hours and mostly walk away unscathed. But when we start dredging up regrets, painful episodes in life (see my swim post from earlier today) and ruminate over material that's purely indicative of something going wrong or trending in the wrong direction, it's harder for me to see where the lines are drawn between jumping in and commenting or sitting on the sidelines. Always quick to keep an eye out for entropy and dystopia. 

Some of my readers seem to think there is a code for writers which disallows us to rebut bad ideas or awkward philosophies. I don't agree. I think we have the same rights of critique and criticism as everyone else. But, again, I may be wrong. But so much of life is beyond binary. It's endless shades of gray. Or grey. 

I'm pretty comfortable with my knowledge base when it comes to most stuff that's photographic in nature. And I think I have long since learned to navigate doing business in a profitable way. When it comes to close personal relationships I try to stay relentlessly positive.  I have only to post a celebratory note about celebrating our 38th wedding anniversary to bring a smile to my own face. But where I get in to trouble is when I assume that all other people will make smart decisions on their own behalf. When I assume that people want to be happy. When I assume that some attitudes and habits are symptoms of misplaced martyr syndromes. Or pathways to depression. But I'm only seeing the top layer, not the whole cake.

If content creators were physical friends instead of virtual friends I would have no hesitation in sitting them down and trying to help. And I would expect the same in return. But with web friends, other than having read and commented on common material we have no other common, personal touchstones, no real bonds and no real understanding of the underlying person. We can conjecture, read into the material in a sort of "between the lines" manner but we might be wrong much more often than we are right. And our ability to change someone else is iffy to negligible. 

As I look over the 5,000+ blog posts I've shared I find that this one itself is so far afield from the subject matter that this channel is supposed to be about. I wonder if most of the long term photo bloggers have so exhausted our primary subject matter that we are now either into endless repetition or, on the other hand, the airing of our grievances with the bad hands we think we've been dealt in life, or just the unexamined but desperate desire to cling to some vestige of relevance. I know the last part is true, in some sense, for me. 

It's disquieting. This misplaced sense of wanting everything to go back to what it was. Wanting blogs to be as fresh as the day one discovered them for the first time. Almost desperately wanting them to be about what they advertise. When I feel like this I should learn to just turn off the lights in the office and go for a walk. No one asked my opinion anyway.